For the first time in months, I wrote a song all by myself (guitars and lyrics) and it's the first song I've written that I'm actually proud of. :D Escape encapsulates what I feel about depression and the desperation to do something – anything – to get myself out of that funk. Lately I realized that traveling gives me a vacation from life and from myself, but it’s a vicious cycle really. The happier I am when I’m traveling, the more depressed I get when I have to return.

For obvious reasons I couldn’t exactly drag Kristel over to my place to record the song so I’m the one doing the singing here. Please don’t expect much out of my voice; there’s a reason why I’m doing back-up vocals, after all. :P

Escape
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I’m going away today
I’m tired of running this race
I’m packing my bags
I’m not looking back
at this sordid space

Don’t know where I’ll end up
but it’s gotta be better than this
I’ll take one for the road
cos it’s something that I’m gonna miss

I’m flying away
from this desolate place
from this desperate state
I’ll be happy today
but it’s just an escape
but it’s just an escape
The moment fades

I’m riding a speeding bus
down a road that I’ve never been
I’m letting the wind chase down
the sweat crawling out of my skin

Don’t know where I am now
but that doesn’t matter to me
Reality’s too far
and the sunlight is all I can see

I’m flying away
from this desolate place
from this desperate state
Hey hey hey
I’ll be happy today
but it’s just an escape
but it’s just an escape

Don’t want to go back to
the place where I should belong
Tomorrow comes too soon
and then everything good will go wrong

I’ll do all that it takes
to get out of this place
to get out of this state
Hey hey hey
I’ll be happy someday
cos someday I’ll escape
cos someday I’ll escape

Na na na na na na
Na na na na na na
Na na na na na na
Hey hey hey
Na na na na na na
Na na na na na na
Na na na na na na
The moment fades

Kristel came over this morning and we spent the entire fricking day just recording songs and making goofy videos (which I can't upload yet because I fail at editing videos). It's going to take me a while to finish mixing everything we did and since I'm a lazy ass I decided to put together the easiest song. It's called Bourgeois Suicide and among the songs we've co-written, this is my favorite because it accurately describes what I feel whenever I'm depressed.

Click to download the podcast and the song.

Comments, suggestions, and hate mail are very welcome. :D