uh huh her (![[info]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} laurgasm) wrote,@ 2008-03-03 11:06:00 |
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Iz in ur office, spreadin seeds of dissent
Last Friday I lost one of my jobs. The US-based owner of one of the websites I wrote for pulled out his funding for the site because his real estate business is plummeting, which means that almost half of my monthly income just went kaput. >_< I spent that afternoon trying to get in touch with all the people I know in the industry who might be able to get me another writing gig. I've had two responses so far, but nothing definite yet.
Maybe it's the lack of caffeine in my system talking, but I've been spending the past half hour playing around with the idea of getting an office job again. It's not even about the money, because the pay's pretty shitty. But I kind of miss being in an office. Okay, ask me how I like working five months into the job and I'll probably say something like, "I am suffocating in my cubicle, get me the fuck out of here!" But I dunno... doing this freelance thing might pay more, but it's unreliable as hell. It's also lonely as hell too. Bugging people on YM is hardly social interaction.
Sometimes I wonder if I'm going freelance because I'm just too lazy/sensitive/whatever to slave away in an office like everybody else. Ok yeah, there's the grad school thing, but I have classmates in the MA program who do office work too.
So I'm going to make a list of pros and cons that I can look back or add to once I come back to my senses. Despite the crazy urge to walk into the HR Department of MBSTek and hand them my resume, the cons seem to be winning the battle. Though the fourth pro makes being an office whore very very tempting:
PROS:
1) Friends.
2) Steady source of income.
3) The company's going to take care of my taxes. So dreading having to go to the BIR myself and handing over a chunk of my money to our assfucking government.
4) I could slowly spread Marxist ideas among my coworkers and start a revolution.
CONS:
1) Work will eat up all my time.
2) Work might eat up all my brain power, leaving me none for school. (Although the opposite could also work true; work could kill my brain, leaving me desperate to revive it by doing something smart, like school work.)
3) Work will definitely eat up all my sanity. Stuff me in a cubicle longer than five hours and watch me explode like a tomato in a microwave.
4) Shitty pay as compared to freelance writing.
Last Friday I lost one of my jobs. The US-based owner of one of the websites I wrote for pulled out his funding for the site because his real estate business is plummeting, which means that almost half of my monthly income just went kaput. >_< I spent that afternoon trying to get in touch with all the people I know in the industry who might be able to get me another writing gig. I've had two responses so far, but nothing definite yet.
Maybe it's the lack of caffeine in my system talking, but I've been spending the past half hour playing around with the idea of getting an office job again. It's not even about the money, because the pay's pretty shitty. But I kind of miss being in an office. Okay, ask me how I like working five months into the job and I'll probably say something like, "I am suffocating in my cubicle, get me the fuck out of here!" But I dunno... doing this freelance thing might pay more, but it's unreliable as hell. It's also lonely as hell too. Bugging people on YM is hardly social interaction.
Sometimes I wonder if I'm going freelance because I'm just too lazy/sensitive/whatever to slave away in an office like everybody else. Ok yeah, there's the grad school thing, but I have classmates in the MA program who do office work too.
So I'm going to make a list of pros and cons that I can look back or add to once I come back to my senses. Despite the crazy urge to walk into the HR Department of MBSTek and hand them my resume, the cons seem to be winning the battle. Though the fourth pro makes being an office whore very very tempting:
PROS:
1) Friends.
2) Steady source of income.
3) The company's going to take care of my taxes. So dreading having to go to the BIR myself and handing over a chunk of my money to our assfucking government.
4) I could slowly spread Marxist ideas among my coworkers and start a revolution.
CONS:
1) Work will eat up all my time.
2) Work might eat up all my brain power, leaving me none for school. (Although the opposite could also work true; work could kill my brain, leaving me desperate to revive it by doing something smart, like school work.)
3) Work will definitely eat up all my sanity. Stuff me in a cubicle longer than five hours and watch me explode like a tomato in a microwave.
4) Shitty pay as compared to freelance writing.
